Building Myself and Loving Baguio Once More

My assumed married life revolved around Baguio City. It is where I discovered a lot of unknown things in my personality and where much of my transformation as an adult occurred not physically but rather mentally and emotionally. It is the place where I fostered my love for my recent ex and it is the pool of my personal experiences ranging from worst to best.

I really think that it is one of the loveliest cities in the Philippines because of its wonderful combination of nature, urbanity, and weather. The only catch is that it is about 600 miles away from home (Tagum City) and is considerably far. I remember that despite all the difficulties that waited in this place, I still opted to leave my comfort zones, fly to Baguio, face different kinds of people with different cultures and values, learn languages somewhat alien to my own, and start life anew with him. I thought that if loving him meant that I must do this kind of sacrifice then I did not see why I should not.

I learned to love Baguio only because he was in it. I fully embraced a lifestyle that is far different from what I had back home until the point came that I decided to leave everything behind for a reason only few can fully decipher. The escape I made for home and freedom from the chains in my life was carried out. I left the place as a torn and incomplete being. Some pieces of me were still left with him and even a lot more were left in Baguio.

For more than a month, I was a complete mess yet I knew that there was a need for me to push myself a little forward. I tried to bring myself back to the right track in both personal and professional aspects of my life and started to pick up the pieces to build myself once again. I remembered that in order for me to completely do that, I must go back Baguio. I knew That someday I will and when that time comes I must be prepared to face it.

Now, I am back in Baguio! Being here again this early did not occur to me at all because I felt I still needed more time at home for myself and for my family. But, due to demands of the times and my desire to finish my masters as soon as possible before I migrate to the USA, I forcibly induced my preparedness to be back. And so I made my choice...

Now I am starting to take back the pieces I left here and I think I am really doing a good job at it. My mind is set not to see him as much as possible because the wounds that have started to heal might be agitated once more. In time, I will cross that bridge but for now I must do what I am supposed to do out of love for myself and for people who truly love me. Moreover, I learned to further appreciate and love Baguio City no longer for reasons related to my ex but because of the splendor that it contains and every beautiful thing it has to offer!

15 comments:

poppa said...

oh! you're mckhoii i once knew through friendster. i still can remember that entry you had- a valedictory address, i guess.

it's you, surely.

you got a lot of knick-knacks in here. haha. love to read some. wish i had much time.

mckhoii said...

Yes I am the one and only mckhoii! hahaha! So you knew me already before you knew about my new blog. You are always welcome to come back anytime you feel free to read my posts. ^_^

Tina T said...

I think it's interesting how you mention that Baguio City is where your worst and best personal experiences took place. I never really thought about it, but worst and best always do seem to go hand in hand. I guess that's how we're able to tolerate the worst.

mckhoii said...

Oftentimes they do but there are also instances when you only get one side of the spectrum

Mikes Blog Marketing Tips said...

Remember, it's about you...not about him...and your marketing tip from me for today is to join some directories. There are some free ones listed on my blog or you can just Google "free blog directories"....awesome post...Peace

mckhoii said...

Thanks Mike! Yes, you are right! I'm glad that so far I've been able to contain all the post to revolve on myself and how I cope with life and not about him and what he is thinking, etc. Wow! I'll check on those blog directories now. Thanks for the tips.,Please keep them coming

mon said...

koi... no need to comment... for once i can say that you ill need my advice anymore... you know what track you should follow as how i read you through this. and that's great enough. knowing what to do in the absence of a compass is considered victory in the beginnings of a battle such as yours. be happy (remember that line of mine?) hehe.. cheers to us!

mckhoii said...

Wow Mon... You always say what I want to hear. Thanks!

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mckhoii said...

Sure Hornetlover!

Mike said...

Hi again,

Just stopping by to drop some EC love on you. Hope this finds you well. Peace.

nash said...

i find ur essay interesting and full of thoughts to ponder. Baguio is really an urban space where vicarious experiences can happen.

indeed, ur story is living inspiration to many. this reminds me that love is all around and love can make things happen at any given time and place.

take care and i wish u all the best in life....

mckhoii said...

Thanks Mike!

I am very happy that I inspire some people in my writing. please keep coming back nash! Godbless!

Dennis said...

I can relate to what you have written, a lot of good and bad things also happened to me when I was still studying here in Baguio. But still, Baguio has its magic and charm that persuades me and makes me love it (Baguio) more and more.

mckhoii said...

so true Dennis!

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